I see that important project you want to launch out into the world sitting on your computer desk. Maybe it’s half finished, maybe you’re afraid to press publish or maybe it’s still an idea in your head. I bet you thought you were being lazy. That you don’t want it bad enough, it’s not your time or simply you don’t have your shit together – clue it’s not that.
You procrastinate, put it off, make excuses, decide that the dishwasher definitely needs to be unpacked right now and cannot wait another minute. But guess what you aren’t lazy, you’re not procrastinating. Did you ever stop to think that your procrastinating is actually because you are terrified of your own perfectionist tendencies and they are holding you back.
Let me paint the scene.
I still remember the first time I was finally dragged along to do yoga with my mother. I was in my second year of university and experiencing crippling levels of anxiety. After struggling for far too long, my mother exclaimed, “that’s it, you are coming to yoga with me, you need to relax.”
I was adamant I wasn’t going to enjoy it. It would be too slow, far too boring, and I wouldn’t get anything from it. And then I tried it. I practiced yoga in a small dark room with 8 other women at times with a yoga teacher I loved. And then week after week I looked forward to that experience. I would drive home and have the best sleep of the week.
Slowly, I totally got my ass handed to me when we did a flow vinyasa that left me sweating before the heaters were even turned on. That was it, I was hooked and I have been practicing yoga ever since.
Fear can stop you doing a lot of things.
It can stop you taking a month off your coaching business while you complete a yoga teacher training because you fear that everyone will forget about you and all of your clients will disappear.
It can tell you that you have to keep working every second of every day, and if you do stop then you will be left behind and forgotten. So don’t stop working. Don’t rest and don’t take a pause.
It can paralyse you with recent world events, maybe you want to contribute but you fear to say the wrong thing, how can you help?
My head has seriously been spinning as of late. I recently moved apartments and I couldn’t think straight, between boxes everywhere, packing, unpacking, getting my period, familiarising myself with a new area and home, like’s felt chaotic. Not to mention finishing the Beautiful Business Mastermind and starting my Yoga Teacher Training soon, as well as going full time within my own business it’s safe to say I was all over the place, couldn’t figure out my up from down and generally feeling funky.
This showed up in life as a short fuse, complaining about everything, being restless, but not being able to stop and take a break.
I couldn’t shake it.
It’s a little taboo isn’t is, there’s some things that are simply off topic. You know, just not ‘appropriate’ to speak about? But I really want to bring to light a conversation that I hope might help you.
First let me paint the scene, I had just quit my part time job. It was official I was going full time in my business – it was time.Then a couple of days later my partner was off on a weekend away and I was left crying on the couch, despaired.
How am I actually going to do this?
How am I going to earn money from this?
I mean enough to pay my bills?