I still remember the first time I was finally dragged along to do yoga with my mother. I was in my second year of university and experiencing crippling levels of anxiety. After struggling for far too long, my mother exclaimed, “that’s it, you are coming to yoga with me, you need to relax.”
I was adamant I wasn’t going to enjoy it. It would be too slow, far too boring, and I wouldn’t get anything from it. And then I tried it. I practiced yoga in a small dark room with 8 other women at times with a yoga teacher I loved. And then week after week I looked forward to that experience. I would drive home and have the best sleep of the week.
Slowly, I totally got my ass handed to me when we did a flow vinyasa that left me sweating before the heaters were even turned on. That was it, I was hooked and I have been practicing yoga ever since.
Fear can stop you doing a lot of things.
It can stop you taking a month off your coaching business while you complete a yoga teacher training because you fear that everyone will forget about you and all of your clients will disappear.
It can tell you that you have to keep working every second of every day, and if you do stop then you will be left behind and forgotten. So don’t stop working. Don’t rest and don’t take a pause.
It can paralyse you with recent world events, maybe you want to contribute but you fear to say the wrong thing, how can you help?
My head has seriously been spinning as of late. I recently moved apartments and I couldn’t think straight, between boxes everywhere, packing, unpacking, getting my period, familiarising myself with a new area and home, like’s felt chaotic. Not to mention finishing the Beautiful Business Mastermind and starting my Yoga Teacher Training soon, as well as going full time within my own business it’s safe to say I was all over the place, couldn’t figure out my up from down and generally feeling funky.
This showed up in life as a short fuse, complaining about everything, being restless, but not being able to stop and take a break.
I couldn’t shake it.
On the weekend I had the absolute pleasure of attending Sian Pascale‘s Urban Goddess Day Retreat all about the Divine Feminine. To say this women is a moving goddess would be accurate. I recently attended her Winter Solstice Yoga Practice that left me feeling so aligned and clear within my own body that I knew I wanted to attend more of her events.
Lesson number one, get out there and connect with people who are doing cool epic shit that you want to be apart of.
As of late I’ve been really called to dive deeper into these goddess archetypes. A couple of days before the divine feminine workshop I attended Julie Parker‘s first Sacred Sister Circle all about the Great Mother, mother earth. At this sacred circle Julie spoke that from the Great Mother Goddess all other goddesses were born from and so I knew it was fitting to learn and speak of my connection with her first.
Have you ever been afraid to ask for more of what you want? You seem to think that you already have so much that you love in your life, so maybe you aren’t deserving of more?
I’ve been thinking about this concept a lot lately. I keep feeling like my life is so good, how could I possibly ask for more? How could I possibly believe that I deserve more? Am I worthy of it?
That inner voice, my ego says to me ‘you should be happy with what you’ve got’.